Surviving Motherhood

Surviving motherhood is my own personal take of being a first-time mother.  As I begin this blog, my son is 5 months old and as much as I want to say that I am getting a handle on things frankly, I am not.

I’ll chronicle my journey from this point on as to what I think and feel as I dive into my new role of being a mom and a stay at home parent.

The first four months of being a mother is a total blur.  It was a lot of diaper changes, loss of sleep, little appetite and tons of doubt on my ability to get through it in one piece.

So as I try to balance and regain some type of normalcy in my life as a new mom and full-time stay at home wife, I will need to figure out and take charge with this career move and learn from the many mistakes I will make along the way.

This journey began back in March of 2008 when my husband and I found out we were expecting. At the time I was working as a co-manager at a retail store (after working in corporate retail for 6 years prior to that) in an extremely toxic environment and knew that I was not going to return to after having a baby.  There were things that were much more important than dealing with unnecessary bullshit from people whose only purpose in life was to reinvent the wheel and attempt to put people down. Fast forward seven months, I was stressed and needed to be put on leave so for the first time during my pregnancy I felt like I can actually take the time to enjoy it and be able to be in the moment and take in what was soon going to be the most dramatic change in my life and that of my husband. December rolls around and a beautiful little boy is now in my life and not having a clue how I will do in this new phase in my life.

Happy, scared, ecstatic, clueless, delighted, are just some of the feelings that I am having. I have never changed a baby, babysat or have interacted much with children in my life, so I know I am in for one hell of an adventure.